Bruised

Sometimes, you just can't help but think, "why is life picking on me?"
Then again, if it wasn't....it would just go after someone else. I wouldn't wish that on anyone.

Bruised 

(by: Lisa Hunsel / Serenity 65)

 

Picked on, punished, beat up and abused.
How much more can our hearts consume.
Life goes on until we’re left as just a bruise.
No glimmer of light in this empty room.
I sink from the stones that's been thrown at me.
I worn, I'm torn, too tired to fight.
I sink to the ground on bended knee.
Waiting for the world to set itself right.
Deep breathes I take, to cleanse my mind.
Gather my senses and get back up again.
I'm beaten down, but not left behind.
I look on to where I'm going and back where I've been.

 

 

Breaking Memories

Sometimes it's hard to look ahead, when all you want to do is go back.

Breaking Memories

(Lisa H/Serenity)

I close my eyes and you’re what I see

This feeling of pain washes over me

It’s not that these memories hurt me so

I can’t get over you and they won’t let me go

Everything reminds me of you

Every song that I hear, everything I do

Not a day goes by that I don’t try to hide

All of the memories resting inside

Moving on with your life is so hard to see

You’re healthy and happy and all without me

I try breaking memories to move on with my life

But truth be told, it cuts deep, like a knife

Creating new memories without you seems wrong

I shouldn’t have hurt you that way, all along.

It’s no wonder you’re able to not look behind

My words were so thoughtless, uncaring and unkind

How others can do this so effortlessly

Is a puzzle unsolved and way beyond me

My time is my own now that we’re apart

I guess I’ll just tuck you back inside my heart

Haunted

This is what happens when you're young and foolish.

I think everyone has one of these in their past.

Haunted

(Serenity/Lisa H)

04/02/2012

Nothing more than memories, I cling to in my dreams

What once we had between us is empty now, it seems

Nothing more than sadness, a reminder of what I’d done

So young and simply foolish to give up the only one.

A shell of childish daydreams of what life would bring to me

I didn’t see the puzzle of us fitting perfectly

I can’t take back the hurtful words, they linger on tomorrow

Echo’s of unspoken pain, has left us both with sorrow.

Though time has pushed you forward and helped you to carry on

I can only hold onto my past, I know those days are gone.

Don't Let Go...

Don’t Let Go…

Serenity/Lisa H 03/2012

If ever there was a little white lie

It’s me telling you just to leave.

It would fall like a raindrop right out of the sky

If only I could believe.

When you tell me you’re sorry, didn’t mean any harm

It just sounds like dishonesty

Yet, I feel so comforted by all of your charm

You show it so naturally.

If I tell you to leave me, to just walk away

It means that I love you and want you to stay

The tears on my face are trying to show

When you walk out that door, I don’t want you to go.

What’s so damned tempting with a heart so untrue?

When it causes me so much pain

What’s not to love about a lie made for two?

All my suspicions, in vain.

I can’t have you beside me,

There’s no trust there, that I see,

But how do I tell my heart not to show

I’ll be heartbroken forever

Fall in love again, never
I can't let you stay, but don't go.

If I tell you to leave me, to just walk away

It means that I love you and want you to stay

The tears on my face are trying to show

When you walk out that door, I don’t want you to go.

Who Am I

Re-posting...some day's I just wonder. 


Who am I
(Serenity - Lisa H)

Open, so exposed
Left helpless in the night
A light shines on the battle
Of wrong and right

The excitement of knowing
The forbidden exits
Leaves me aching, breaking
I can’t resist

.....Caught up in sensation
.....No room for emotion
.....Enveloped in the passion
.....The comfort of devotion

My life’s not my own
It lies helplessly still
Depending on another
My desires to fulfill

Uncertainty lends way
To the fear I deny
My trust starts to crumble
What does this imply?

.....The end of reality
.....My heart, a complexity
.....No longer a mystery
.....My life, now a memory.

The water’s edge
(Serenity / Lisa H)


Alone.
Sitting, barefoot on the beach.
Toes digging into the warm sand.
Drawing meaningless pictures with a stick that washed up on the shore.
A line.
What does that mean?
Tears sting my eyes, threatening to spill
The realization brings me back to awareness.
I miss him.
I miss him so damned much, but it’s my own fault he’s not around.
He was my friend and I destroyed that.
I crossed that invisible line, though I never meant to.
No no, nothing physical. It wasn’t like that.
It was the things unsaid. Undone. Un….unintentional.
How do you go from being someone important in a life, to painful?
I feel…I feel I'm painful.
A splinter broken off under the skin.
Irritating.
A constant reminder.
And once removed, no longer a part of their life.
I toss the stick onto the water’s edge.
The tide carries it away…as if I’d never held it at all.
Distant.
A memory.
Fading.
Gone.

Honest Omission

I wrote this for something altogether different, but it has a clear message for all.  
The truth, when given in pieces, can be as painful as a broken heart.


Honest Omission
(Serenity / Lisa H)

Sticks & stones may break my bones
But words will scar forever 

Deeper wounds, it leaves behind
From vacant pledge endeavors 

Though meant to ease a broken heart
And seal the gash from bleeding 

Without the cloak of honesty
The actions are but fleeting.